Symptomatic, by Lava Creations

Symptomatic

by Lava Creations

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1.	I. The Enemy Arrives 03:37	lyrics	buy track
Something's not right I cant describe it Its not on the surface But something's not right I have lived in this body for 27 years But I always knew I was the only one inside I feel like the heroin addict From The Drawing of the Three Someone's inside I cant get him out even though I know He's there And this time its not the Gunslinger She's looking at me differently She sees it too I cant hide the strange way I have felt Too many strange signs giving me away What is wrong with me? I look and feel different Dark rings circle my eyes I think she knows who's inside God please tell me: What is wrong with me? She knows, but why wont she tell me?
2.	II. Mission Statement 04:26	lyrics	buy track
I begin my defense with a message A mission statement, a set of words I will use to focus my frustration Into a somehow deranged concentration A channel of fury A victim of life transformed Into superhero I am Again we dance to the rhythm of words That lead us merrily down the path to nowhere I hear the answer you try not to give me And so the anger builds and the frustration calls CHORUS: I will not look back I will not back down I will fight and I will win I will not bend over I will not look back I will not lay down I will not bend over And assume the truth you hide It remains to me a curious thing How naivete is to help me I want to I need to name my enemy And yet you continue to insult me I know what lies ahead And I feel what is deep inside Why cant you tell me what I already know Its going to be a very bumpy ride I know that you are trying to do what's best for me But you cannot protect me anymore Give me my focal point, my target, my mission And Ill beat what I can no longer ignore CHORUS
3.	III. Undone, Unsaid 04:46	lyrics	buy track
So my enemy has a name I look down at your hand Interlaced with mine And the room seems to darken around me In this moment when I should be focusing Instead I notice your hand perspiring And how tightly you are holding on to me All the mouths, they continue to move But it all seems to be in slow motion BRIDGE And the sound continues to fade Fading far away Until all I hear is the sound of my breathing CHORUS My mind begins to wander To places I019ve never been So much undone So much unsaid My heart hurts at the thought That my dreams may never come true So much undone So much unsaid Death is after me It is as I had expected Where is my sadness, anger, hatred? These emotions were very much alive But now I only feel numb So much undone So much unsaid BRIDGE CHORUS
4.	IV. 65 Degrees 04:11	lyrics	buy track
Pushing on, moving forward with hope From crawl, to walk, to jog, to run The tides have turned my way for now it seems Having a good day, a rare day A day to celebrate the magic of life CHORUS: I believe there is a place for me to be I believe there is a life for me to lead God has spared me for a while it seems I must not let dust settle on my feet Can you remember a day when all you wanted was to drive? All the windows down and the air, the wind, whipping through? Walking out to your car And lifting your head to the sky Inhale, soaking in the smell of fallen leaves The smell of 65 degrees He spared me only for a few days like these CHORUS Run with me, away to where the truth can019t see Stay hidden in the smell of 65 degrees Happiness can cure even the worst of disease At least in the end you know you believe
5.	V. Tomorrow 05:05	lyrics	buy track
(Me) I search for strength As you tell me to keep the faith I go from hope to despair within every conversation (You) I keep planning for a miracle But fearing it's the end You keep saying you're fine But I hear the hesitation I look in your eyes and read your mind CHORUS: Tell me I won't be alone tomorrow I don't think that I can deal with that pain Tell me it'll be o.k. tomorrow So we can return to life again (Me) Isn't there some other way To slay the beast inside me? The knife feels right Though I can't keep the panic from rising (You) I need you to suck it up and fight Fight for your life and mine Look your demons in the eye And find your way to the other side I close my eyes and hear your cries CHORUS: BRIDGE: It's hard to believe the day has come For me to face the pain The thought of not surviving tomorrow Is driving me insane SOLO CHORUS X2
6.	VI. Heading Below and Returning Again 03:18	lyrics	buy track
Deep breath Cool surge Drifting slowly Smiling Feeling Seeing everything and nothing The crimson sky melting the horizon Distant sun fading Purple fog gaining Images swimming into dream reality That patchy film rolls again Peace Terror Peace Dryness Shapes glide by Blues and whites and grays Florescence Warmth in blankets Cold harsh air Thirst unspoken Drained Hungry Sleepy Changed Finished
7.	VII. The Threat 05:41	lyrics	buy track
Although it's far from over I can see the end in sight The mountain of pills at my bedside Are symbols of how hard I fight The threat has subsided But will never leave The value of life is knowing Exactly how fleeting it can be In ways I only read about in stories Suddenly that same burden was upon me The threat has subsided But will never leave The threat has subsided But may never leave My health is gone, my hair is too My wealth is gone, it's just me and you But I am happier than I have ever been in life Because I am here, able to live with you The threat has subsided But will never leave The threat has subsided But may never leave The threat has subsided Could it ever leave? Now I wake up every day with my mission in mind Committing to live each moment like it's my last So if the threat comes back around again to find me I'll be happy to head out - or fight again
8.	Evolution 04:46	lyrics	buy track
Transformed, stronger and focused A deadly combination Look at me now Do you see the vigor Do you feel the vibe I have returned. Love me, hate me, feel me, take me To the place I've longed to go Its been so long that I've been gone And I cant stay away anymore. I have returned. Out of the fog Out of the haze A beacon in the distance Has been calling my name Beckoning me to return Back to the front Did you hear me say I have returned. Take notice I have been gone too long And the embers of my past Have found their glow again My frustration over wasted years And aggravation over pointless fears Has found its voice again And you will hear it over and over and over again I have returned.
9.	Billie Jean 04:24	info	buy track
10.	Frailty (The Way of Rome) 03:41	lyrics	buy track
Weakened states, weakened nation Banks on the verge of collapse Governments tinker with economies of scale While individuals fall through the cracks Lies borne out of selfishness and gluttony Inflated bubbles on the backs of you and me Easy money to fulfill your American Dream Now the debt that defines our children’s reality Mass delusion yesterday Mass hysteria today No credit, only blame No responsibility, only shame Robbing Peter to pay Paul to save our homes As the American Empire goes the way of Rome Obama, Obama, save us, save us Save us from our harsh reality We’re obviously incapable of a life without debt So please go and print some more money Hyperinflation, devaluation Revolution crouches on the horizon Unemployment adding timber to the blaze Lady Liberty is shaking from her daze America is a house of cards, frail and weak at the seams Time to stand up and fight, bring the establishment to it’s knees
11.	I'm the Gun 04:32	lyrics	buy track
I stood there in the waiting room Tears rolling down my face The doctors words fading into silence As I stood there in a daze With my head in my hands I again replayed the day We shouldn't have been there We should've been miles away The chamber was loaded and the wheel spun round Fate had decided that this is how it would go down I never even saw her I never even had a chance To ease up on the trigger or take a second glance I'm the Gun Focused and deadly I had the target in my sights I drew in my breath Ready to bring the hammer down I closed my eyes as I let it fly But there was such a strange sound The sound I heard cannot be described in words in words I'm the Gun The gun was fired and the damage done Ill have to live with knowing Im the one I never even saw her I never even had a chance To ease up on the trigger or take a second glance I'm the Gun
12.	West End Girls 04:47	info	buy track
13.	Sunglasses at Night 05:00	info	buy track

about

The first seven songs of this album are a story about a man who battles Hodgkins. I had the words mostly written in 1999-2000, but didn't put it to music until 2009-10. The remainder is a combination of new original music and covers.